Have you ever felt crippled
By the deep pain beyond words
Of the past inflicted upon you
By all those whom you loved
And trusted most?
Have you ever had the thoughts that
You have been on your healing journey
For so long and wondered
When you would be completely free
From all this deep pain, sadness,
Grief and sorrow?
Have you ever felt that
You can’t wait till the day
You are completely free from
All this deep pain of the past?
If you spent most of your life
Suppressing all of your thoughts,
Feelings, emotions, pain and voice,
To the level where you no longer
Knew who you were
To the level where you no longer
Knew what you wanted in life
To the level where you weren’t aware
You were feeling angry
When you did feel angry
To the level where you weren’t aware
You were feeling sad
When you did feel sad
To the level where all you knew
Was guilt, shame and pain
That you longer wanted to exist
And stopped existing all together,
It doesn’t take forever,
Yet it does take a while
To set you free from all damage done
If you have felt deep pain
For a long while,
It is ok
There is no timeframe
There is no constriction on it
Allow you to feel it fullly
Deep in your heart
With every fibre of your being
Whenever it arises
Cry like a river
As long as you need
Without any judgment of you
That much unbearable pain in your heart
Is that much love and beyond
You have and be for YOU
That is YOU healing you right there
That is your inner healer right there
Healing is not an overnight thing
It is not taking a certain course or program
It is not taking workshop after workshop
It is not reading book after book
It is not studying modality after modality
It is not listening to
Teacher after teacher,
Guru after guru,
Looking for answers from
Everybody else other than YOU,
Then you are healed,
There is nothing wrong with all of it
All of it is nice and great
As part of the healing journey,
Yet inner healing does take
So much inner work on our part,
Our willingness to sit with ourselves
Our willingness to make our own time
For ourselves to dig deep
Our willingness to acknowledge
All the lies we tell ourselves
Our willingness to feel all the
Uncomfortable feelings and pain
No matter how unbearable it can be
Our willingness to acknowledge
We are wrong about
Whatever we believe
Our willingness to acknowledge
The ugly truth besides all the goodness
As much as possible
Each and everyday
In order to be free
Instead of being right
And getting stuck
With our own limitations
Only we ourselves can do this work
For our true healing from deep within
No program
No book
No teacher
No whoever and whatever else
Outside of us can do it for us
You are your ultimate Source
You are the only one who sets you free
You are the only one who acknowledges
And appreciates you
When nobody else can
You are the only one who knows
What is true and light for you
You are the only one who knows
What you require and desire,
You are the only one who trusts YOU
Before anybody else
And that is really a choice
If you ever have doubts
You are still far away from your healing,
The fact that you still choose to exist
The fact that you still choose to fight for you
The fact that you still are standing here
The fact that you still choose to keep going
With or without anybody else in your life
The fact that you are willing to go there
Allowing you to start to be able to feel
All the thoughts, feelings and emotions
Start to speak your truth and your voice
Taking YOU back
One step at a time
One choice at a time
That you thought you never could
The fact that you are willing to
Go there and feel the unbearable pain
That you buried for so long
That most people do everything
They can to avoid,
That is the hardest job to do
On this planet Earth
Yet you have been doing it
You are a badass like nobody else
You are willing to be different
You know where you are going
For your total freedom
Your incredible effort and non-stop
Fight for you and your total being
Is what has brought you here
Far beyond what you are willing
To acknowledge
Would you like to acknowledge
And appreciate everything
You have been doing for you
And everywhere you have been for you
Before and more than anybody else can?
When you never give up on you,
You are and always will be moving forward
Even if you don’t feel like it
If you were crawling in the past,
Now you are walking,
If all you could do is crawling right now,
Keep going at your own pace
Before you know it,
You will be running and flying
With your gigantic wings
As God’s magnificent phoenix
For your total freedom
With your total awareness
With your inner knowing
With your conscious choice
At any given moment you choose
As your eternal inner compass
Time and again
You are God’s unstoppable warrior
Of infinite truth and wisdom
Of infinite power and potency
Of infinite kindness and gentleness
For all eternity and back.
You got this. One step at a time.
- Phuong
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