When you lost something or someone
How many times
Did you blame and judge yourself
You didn’t do enough
You must have missed something
You could have done better
You should have done better?
How much of your life
Have you spent holding on
To guilt and regret
To sadness and sorrow
Thinking and believing
As long as you hold on to it
You will figure something out
You will be able to fix it
You will be able to get it back?
Have you found yourself
Keeping searching for some reason
That you missed and
You have never seemed to find it?
What if it’s because
It never existed
From the first place?
What if it’s because
You did nothing wrong?
What if it’s because
You had done
Way more than enough
With what you had available
At those very moments
Far more than you were
Willing to acknowledge?
Have you noticed
As loving and caring as you are
Beyond this world,
You always looked for what else
You can do and be
To be better
To be kinder
Even that includes blaming you
Even that includes being kind
To everybody else except YOU
During that process?
Everywhere you blamed yourself
For whatever you did
Perceived as never enough
Which wasn’t true for or about you
Thinking and believing
That’s how you can be better and kinder
That’s how you can be perfect
That’s how you were expected to be
And how much of that is a lie
That you bought from
Your authority figures
As real, true and yours
When it actually wasn’t?
Everything that is,
Would you be willing
To uncreate, delete, destroy it all
And return it all to them please?
Would you like to receive
What it feels like to do and be more
As your total being
Through every cell of your body
Without having to blame yourself
Without having to make you wrong
For whatever you do or don’t do?
What if when you lose
Something or someone,
It is your contribution
To their growth and evolution?
What if when you lose
Something or someone,
You contribute to YOU
You gain more of YOU
Your space for you
Your kindness for you
Your compassion for you
Your trust in you
Your trust in God
Your trust in life
That you never had before?
What if when you lose
Who and what you think you are,
You gain your total being and more?
What if loss is the blessing
Where you break all the chain
Of all cages and lies
That you were taught?
Who can do better than that
Other than YOU?
What if loss is the blessing
Where you remember your soul?
What if loss is the blessing to
Your infinite joy that
You are meant to live?
What if loss is the blessing
To your infinite possibilities
To your infinite knowing
To your infinite wisdom
To your infinite awareness
To your infinite kindness
To your infinite freedom
That you truly be?
What if loss is the liberation
Of your infinite power and potency
Of your infinite capabilities and capacities
God created you to be?
What if loss is the blessing
Where you no longer hide
Your light and greatness?
What if loss is the blessing
That you show to the world
That there is always hope
That there is always a way
Way bigger and greater
Than ever before?
What if loss is your power
Of turning dust into gold?
What if loss is the blessing
For the victory and glory
To reclaim all of YOU?
The powerful leader
The extraordinary mega-creator
The phenomenal superhuman
God’s blessing
You are born to be
You got this. One step at a time.
- Phuong
