How many times in your life
Did you decide or want to
Choose something for yourself
That would make you happy
Yet your loved ones told you
You shouldn’t, couldn’t or
Weren’t supposed to do so
That got you confused
Thinking and believing
You were selfish
You were wrong
You weren’t grateful
You owed them your life
You did something wrong
You were responsible for their pain
The list goes on and on?
Is it true?
Whatever feels lighter is true for you
Whatever feels heavier is a lie for you
Always
How much of all that selfishness,
Ungratefulness, wrongness,
Shouldn’t, couldn’t
Is their lies and manipulation
To make you feel guilty
In order for them to control you
To get you to do
What they wanted you to do?
How much of it is all the
Guilt, blame and shame
They threw at you
That you perceived from them
Thought it was you, bought it was yours
That made you feel so heavy?
Everything you did,
Agreeing and aligning with their lies
Resisting and reacting to their lies
Buying them as yours,
Everything that is,
Would you like to
Uncreate, destroy and
Return them all to the senders please?
Your loved ones or anyone could tell you
How much they loved you
With all of their sweetest words
Under the sun
How much they cried for you
Worried about you,
Did this and that for you
To show you their love and caring for you
While guilting, shaming and blaming you
As though everything was your fault,
To the bottom of a hole that
You couldn’t even have to hide,
Did it feel heavy as hell for you?
Was that loving and caring?
No
That was straight abuse
That was outright manipulation
That was flat out control
They did all of it for their own sake
For their own satisfaction and gratification
To cover up their own guilt
None of it was caring for you
Yet you took it all on because
You wanted to take away their pain
That is how loving and caring you are
Have you noticed any of your loved ones
Has tried to do anything
To change themselves and their behaviour
To be responsible for their own
Thoughts, feelings and emotions
Their own problems and pain?
No
Because they have decided
They are always right
They don’t need to change anything
They don’t want to change anything
It is everybody else’s fault, not theirs
Is that loving and caring
To them and you?
No
The fact that you are right here
And have been on a long journey
Of healing you and your own pain
Reclaiming your life
Shining your light
Is more proof of
How loving and caring you are beyond words
How much you desire to grow
How much of your deep inner knowing that
There is always more for you
Far bigger and greater
Than everything you were taught
That is your unstoppable light and love
You have been following, trusting and being
So everywhere you bought their lies
Of love that actually weren’t
Believing it was the definition of love
When it actually was
Abuse, manipulation and control,
Everything that is,
Would you like to uncreate,
Delete, destroy and return
All of that pile of crap
To the senders please?
Would you like to receive
What love truly is
What love truly feels like
Because you are God’s love,
And God’s love is YOU
From God as your Source within you
Through every cell of your body?
Would you like to receive that
You know what it feels like
To be loving and caring
As you truly be
Without having to take on
Any guilt, blame, shame and wrongness
From your loved ones and anybody else?
Would you like to receive that
You are safe and free
To choose whatever you like to do
From your heart and soul
Without taking on anyone else’s crap
That brings you
Lightness and expansion
Inspiration and empowerment
Joy and ease
Growth and evolution
For your own soul?
No more abuse
Enough is enough
Rise and fly your wings,
God’s magnificent warriors
That is reclaiming your truth
That is reclaiming your voice
That is reclaiming your freedom
That is reclaiming your space
That is reclaiming your total being
That is reclaiming your birthright
To be
You got this. One step at a time.
- Phuong
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