Have you ever felt so much pain
That it felt unbearable
That it felt overwhelming
That it tore your heart and soul
Into parts and pieces
That you felt like
You had no strength left
Nobody was there for you
To pick you up
Questioning yourself
How you could go from here
How you could even pick yourself up
How you could even stand up
How you could even move at all?
Did you judge you for breaking down
For all those experiences
As powerless and helpless
Weak and vulnerable
Thinking and believing
How you couldn’t be strong
How you couldn’t pull yourself together
Like everybody else, or
What was wrong with you?
Does it feel heavy for you?
How much of it is the judgments
That you perceived from
Everybody else around you
That weren’t yours?
A little, a lot or all of it?
Everything you have done
To judge you as weakness
And wrongness
As too emotional and sensitive
For all the feelings and emotions
You were capable of feeling
Way much more than
Everybody else around you
Being willing to do and be
While it was, is and
Always will be your greatness,
Everything that is,
Would you like to uncreate, destroy
And return it all to senders please?
It is that pain that you know
What it feels like to be
Such a deep compassion
For you and others’ pain
Beyond words
It is that pain that you know
What it feels like to be
Such a safe space
For you and others
It is that pain that you know
What it feels like to be
Gentle and empowering
To you and others
It is that pain that you know
What it feels like to
Refuse putting anybody else down
And only lift them up
With such a burning fire and desire
From your heart and soul
It is that pain that you know
What it feels like to
Break you and others free
From cages and walls
From lies and litmitations
To spread your wings
For your freedom
And allow others to
Spread their wings
For their freedom
It is that pain that you know
What it feels like
To awaken, reclaim and be
Your infinite magnificent starlight
You truly be
It is that pain that you know
What it feels like
To see, awaken and unearth
Nothing less than that in others
It is that pain that
You might have thought and believed
Nobody was there for you
To pick you up
That you have realized
God’s hands have always been
Touching your soul and
Picking you up
In unimaginable ways
Beyond naked eyes
It is that pain that
That you thought
You lost your way
That you have found
Your way back Home
With YOU and God
It is that pain that
You know what it feels like
To be filled with so much
Appreciation and gratitude
For all the pain
As you have turned it all
And continue to turn it all
Into God’s priceless gifts
For your beautiful soul’s blessings
It is that pain that
You thought you had no dreams
You thought you had no desire
You thought you had no identity
You thought you were nobody
You thought you were dead inside
You thought you were useless
That you have remembered
Your total truth that
You are God’s miraculous gift
You are God’s gigantic dreams
You are God’s desire and fire
You are God’s infinite miraculous star
To you and the world
Only such gigantic heart as yours
Only such a magnificent soul as YOU
Would be willing, built for
And capable of experiencing
All the deepest and greatest pain
That you experienced
Turning turmoil into beauty
Turning confusion into clarity
Turning cruelty into kindness
Turnning nothingness into greatness
That is your natural gift
That is your natural capability
That is your God’s power
That is your God’s extraordinariness
That you are born to be
It can’t be taught
It can’t be conditioned
It can’t be tainted
It can’t be nullified
It can’t be destroyed,
Would you like to
Acknowledge and receive
That undeniable greatness of YOU?
You are a natural great wonder
Of magic and miracles
Of gifts and blessings
Of appreciation and beauty
Of strength and greatness
From all the pain you experienced
You are one in a million,
My beautiful soul
You got this. One step at a time.
- Phuong
