Have you ever had the thoughts
If your circumstances could change
If your significant others could change
And give you what you need,
You would feel so much happier
And everything would be ok?
Have you ever told yourself that
You accept what it is
When your needs aren’t met,
Yet deep inside you feel disappointed,
Resentful and sad while telling yourself
It is ok in order to be strong
Burying all the painful feelings
Denying them long enough
To the level where
You no longer recognize what they are
Suppressing all of your needs
Yet knowing so well everybody else’s needs
And whenever you do have needs,
You would feel unworthy and guilty
Blaming and shaming yourself
You aren’t supposed to have any
You are too demanding
You are too much?
Is it true?
Does it feel heavier for you?
How much of it belongs to
All those who taught you?
What if there is nothing wrong
With you for having needs?
What if they just weren’t capable
Of giving you what you deserve?
How many people have you attracted
Into your life who are the repetition
Of all those who taught you
Based on their lie that
You weren’t worthy of receiving
That wasn’t yours?
How much of it is giving you away
And giving you up
To the hands of others and their opinions
To decide your own freedom and happiness?
How much of it is cutting off
All parts and pieces of you
Living everybody else’s lives
Meeting their expectations and standards,
None of which is your own?
How much of it is being YOU
Owning and living your life?
A little, a lot or none?
So everywhere you made anyone
And anything significant
Giving them the power
To decide your life
How you feel and
The life you desire
And are worthy to live,
Everything that is,
Would you be willing to
Uncreate, delete and destroy it all?
Let’s say you didn’t have
Your family, your spouse
Your children, your friends
Your job, your house
Your money, your car
Anybody or anything at all
Who and what would you have left?
Who and what would make you happy?
Who and what could give you
All the fundamental needs you require
All the unconditional love you deserve
All the happiness and joy you desire
When nobody else and nothing else could?
YOU
You are your ultimate Source
That is how powerful you are
You create the life you want to live
You decide how you feel
You create the circumstances
You want to experience
You gift you everything you need
When nobody and nothing else can
You choose the people
Whom you want to be in your life
You choose to be happy
With or without anybody or anything,
Not the other way around
As a quote that says,
‘It is not the way to happiness
Happiness is the way’
YOU are the way
Would you be willing
To lose anybody or anything
That doesn’t empower you or
Allow you to be all of YOU
Knowing that losing is gaining?
Tolerating is accepting less than
It no longer works for you
You are meant to live an extraordinary life
Doing what you love
That expands your soul and being
With joy, ease and freedom,
Not so-so
Not ordinary
Not less than
Not better than nothing
Not half good and half bad
Not more bad than good
Not ‘no-choice’ universe,
Yes, it would be painful as hell
You might feel like you would die
You might feel like you couldn’t survive
Or make it if you might lose
Something or somebody
That is perceived as significant to you,
Yet you would get over it
You would gain more of YOU
You would trust YOU even more
You would remember YOU even more
You would be even more alive and awake
You would continue to move forward
You would thrive
Beyond your wildest dreams
With total clarity of YOU and your path
Nothing could go wrong
Everything would go right
For you and everyone involved
Even when it doesn’t go
The way you expect
You might wonder
How do you know
If that is what you get
When you all you feel is fear?
You don’t know until you take the first step
You don’t know until you make a choice
You just gotta be willing
To choose to trust YOU
Trust the lightness of
The choices you make
One choice at a time
Your burning desire to know YOU
Your burning desire to trust YOU
Your burning desire to love YOU
Your burning desire to be YOU
Will override any fear and doubt
You might have
Will disrupt all the lies
You were taught to believe about you
And will end all other desires
Outside of you
What if lies, life or death
Holds no significance to you?
What if your burning desire
Is nothing but your God’s total truth
As your life compass?
Then who and what can control you?
None
With that willingness and
Burning desire in your soul,
No amount of money
No amount of fame
No amount of status
No amount of possesions
No amount of people
No amount of fear
No amount of doubt
No amount of needs
Can ever control you
Because YOU are everything that you need
You are the candle
You are the torch
You are the light
You are the spark
You are the fire
You are the flame
You are the life force
That burns bigger and brighter
That shines the entire Universe
That propels you forward
From within
For all eternity
No matter what
You got this. One step at a time.
- Phuong
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